A New Beginning

Okay, well where to begin? 

I've never been happy with my weight, and I have had a love-hate relationship with food for over two years now. I can't really point out where it started, I just sort of woke up one day and realised I was fat. And I'm not saying that from my point of view, I did have a normal BMI but it was about 2 units under overweight and that was probably my trigger. From that point on my weight has risen and fallen and well risen back up again, not ad bad as it was, but it's still not great. So this is the point of my blog, to help me to get back down to my desired weight. All my stats have been posted up on the side bar and I'll keep it accurate. I don't wish to be underweight, infact my goal weight is considered a normal BMI, but its a lot closer to the underweight limit than it is the overweight limit. Obvious I know, just thought I should mention it anyway. This is a new beginning for me as I start University in September and I want to reach my UGW so I can get off to a great start there. I suppose this is my preparation for University along with studying and finishing school. I just want to finally be able to look at myself in the mirror and see what I have wanted to see for so long, a skinny me. Me being fat has caused a lot of problems for me, I don't go out with friends because I feel hideous, I don't wear bikinis or shorts. I'm always in baggy huge t-shirts that look like dresses. I do self harm. I usually slice my hip and press down on the cuts whenever I am about to eat. Sometimes I press down on them just to remind myself of what I want, to give me a little kick in the right direction. Yeah, a bit too much information there. Right well, my new beginning starts tomorrow (Monday) and well wish me luck :)